Saturday, January 21, 2006
these days have been bleahs. my knee's hurting like shit. cant walk properly. tournament's starting on wed. CRAP. my knee must NOT give way. if not, i DOOMED. this sucks. 3 weeks into school. but it seems like months. im too tired to carry on anymore. its the waiting thats too long.i know 23rd is coming. but what can i even do. maybe letting go is the best option after all. everyone time i try to forget. ur face comes into my mind. my eyes start to tear.i try to hold back when they are aroundbut when they're notthe tears start running down my cheek freely.no one to help me.no one to guide me.this sucks.leave me to cry miserably alone then.~disconnected.went shopping for about 2 hours. bought something to wear for first day of cny. tournament's on wed. tensions are rising. pressure is mounting. and im losing myself. just great.
leaveeeeeeeee like everything else 6:43 AM
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